Friends would never do anything to hurt you,, and still the deepest damages are caused by one of the closest friends that become.

It's been a while n so on,
the broken glasses have been thrown
I paint the pane,
a new each day
but it cdnt replace the one i've known,,,

I can stop to cover in lieu,
no old n nothing new
i would swirl every shade in vain
to hide what has been missing

It's been a while
n so the pictures are thrown away
I dunno though to be glad or sad
to be not able to feel the same way,

It's not that i want to have you now
thr lies nothing ahead this lane
but if it was ever that i felt again
Tis the shreadz n the remains of the broken pane

Incomplete

The ashes, the flashes, d memories
disappeared while I thou withstood
and today this time you stand here again
and it doesn't feel that good

the fact that it feels
and I don't know why
I'm scared to stand and strive

But the shadows of the past,
like the circles of life....



.......................

i see out of the turbid frame
as d fighters n the rankers play
i sit n see thru the soot on d glass
succeeded to stay out of their guile away..

Happy to see one more takes fall
gets buried under the murk of coal
Had it been that innocent to survive
n then i peep into my soul..

Power goes into the hands of those
who nurture the weaker's high.
or maybe they r at that position now
coz they needed that hand thereby...

28sept '09

I know not wats this feeling,,
tell me how to follow it sway..
Tell me how to look into your eyes..
O' why did it have to be this way??

I can nothing but be hard today,,
to conceal my weaker soul..
O' take the rightest state of mine,,
I'm just so sorry for this role..

I know you're bothered a lot coz of me,,
but do you still intend to care..
After the whole of this today,,
Do you think you still are there??

O' why does it matter to you, plz stop-
to make me feel this low..
But promise to make it same again..
-or just stop loving me though...!!

The pride behind ur weakness'
the pain is but your treasure
else the existence beholds but sympathy
n thats where your pain turns into pleasure..

.....the pleasure of tasting the agony unhurt
n the pain is now the misery, forlorn
dont make me reveal the scars of failure
coz the treasure is just my own...

Serendipity

--Giving up duzn't alwayz mean u'r weak...
Sometimes You're strong enough to let things go...--


P.S.-~You may say you're Paralysed,,, but I'd simply enjoy the Indolence~
:P

Twas only after you returned that I realised how much I missed you..
It's exciting to have u bak.. :))

I looked up at the sky
the depth of itz darkness
-absorbed deep into ma eyes

n a tear trickled out
blurring ma vision to look around
Should I shut off to go blind
or cleanse it o'er- to what I've found!

I glanced it over and you
lyk the darkness in the sky
Holding it hard into a part of me
I'd simply cease to go by!!!

Crude, rigorous, glazed, operose!
The plank's prepared for the lustrous assault.
Synchronizing the pervade with its confronting throes.
The prey's been chopped for none of his fault.

Impeccant the soul,lie myriad into bits
Bragging its titles, as contusions but few.
Has gained his share for the charge of the slits
Careless of what, the slayer is going through...


Those hands dat incised the skin wid a thud
Has painted the menage wid a rouge of grease
He kissed his palms soaked red in blood.
compunctioned for the soul lying rest in peace.

He who hath lived a thous of demise
is allayed, for d sin wid a nix of abet.
Veiling the haze behind the frozen crusty eyes
water ....dat leaves no surface wet..

A touch of spring,- to the withered
A flickering flame in the dark!
Thats how it starts every stretch-
Ending it up with another embark...

Twas your game to win! wasn't it?
You played it well ~applaud~
but even before you could reach to endure
I pulled the triumphant cord...

Twas never to win or to let you down
to bring you lie this low!
n see I've brought you down to this state
--Without even letting you know!!!

Ignited to lead, it's broiling hard,
-with summing fuel and hotter!
But to remind you dude, ma sweet li'l chump
'THe flame doth not carouse THE WATER'

I enjoyed being a part of your game
You've seen me coy n low!
and if you think u'r making me fall--
then yeah,, m falling to grow...!!

THe haze around the core,
the fervent implore,
keeps it all abate-
Drenching the shore, evenmore!

THe hull diminishes each pulse,
am no more the same
It hauls my feet aback-
to see it yet a game!

THe smoke up all around,
the constricted , bolted door,
am paralysed to act-
coz its not about me ANYMORE!

An instant of demise,
'vanquished the same'-
I knew that from the start
am a part of your game!

THe metal's in my hands too,
but I'd rather sustain,
even though m not here to win-
m not gonna take up the wane...

i wish i cd ask for it bak,,,
i gave it to some1 i loved more than dat..
but mayb its too late to realise
-dat i even lost the thing that smhow
predominates u'r worth,
.....as of now.


8nov08, saturday.

I need them not, nor love them ryte,
yet we are frenz and that so gr8
Expect them not to have in storms,
Presumed they'll stand just insensate.

So they did, erect stood straight,
dumb and dormant to mind
Though had that no place so special,
The idol is still missing from the shrine.

i cd never in my lyf experience this much hatred for smbody..
n i hate myself more for being in this state 2day...

'i can even kill them ryte at one go...
no matter watever the consequences may be...'


After all, the battle has just begun...

I've never felt this much paralyzed to b unable to pen down a single word...
I give up ...
...~AGAIN~....

Gone..

The spring of the dawn,
the shadows in the lawn,
with a soul-less heart..
All along its gone
....Its gone!


Twas nice, awesome,
an experience 2 drag it to d tow,
so grateful of d decision-
-coz I dont even hate you now..

Luckiest thing happening to me-
-to have u, its true,
n to be the 'luckiest' one- 'ME'!
to let go of you..
You're going away.... forever
... O' neay,, you're already gone!


M glad twas fun,
d journey n d drain
I lost it yeah but m glad I gain,
The seasons may turn,
the needles rewind-
-but the spring of the dawn...
......Forever is gone!


The vessel is broken,
its bleeding so strong,-
but the colour of the profusion-
-is red for no long

The seasons and d sun
were sure to be gone,
but the springs of the dawn,....
.....is gone, Its gone!


----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


-I walked past them 2 get u in return,
-n even u left my hand on the shore
-They're not to b got again in turn,
-But thanx...
-Thanx a lot...
-Coz there's no need to get anyone back anymore...

-------------------------------------------------------------------




I wonder if twas really difficult 4 u to imagine me to die,
Does it really make a difference
Was I, ever in ur world alive..
But ya it does make one difference here for so sure
Dat in my world ur not 2 b there- living
Anymore..



-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

P.S.-Wriggled into the crust, 2 realise it of its own powers,
Like a wood percieves d fragrance of its flowers,
Like ur breath moved d metals of d chime,
M sorry! so sorry as m breaking my promise for d last
-n d very last tyme,...

Twas not difficult 4 me to blank you out!
u just made it easier for me...

Mediocre Perfection

When with such an ease
could smone kiss the sky,
Ne'er with much o' failure
Any one would satisfy!

ever would some1 smile
o'er the tasks so lame,
However worse it may be
It's not she, da 1 o'er the blame!

When you understand and hug
-a brute or a beast
When sin to a priest
is no better than a feast!

When you need it most
and want it not,
When mediocrity wins
the finest lot!

When a poet without a heart
is proud lyke never,
When a writer with no word
-is the best ever!

When you see, hear
n cannot sense,
and u sure apprehend
with zero clemens!

When a drop cleanse off
the impressions on the shore,
When the pumping heart
-beats no more!

An inquisitive mind
where curiosity ends,
When a wink suffice
d whole offence!

When the host instilled with virus
-starts enjoying the infection,
Is this what is called....

............Achieving Perfection..??!!


19th Feb 2008

Corked it hard, so hard to release the fumes of demise,
Why did she have to fall, to instigate my steps to rise??!...

its broken, distorted, quenched, annealed
a neutral screen playing with silver swords
reflecting silence of the absorbed shield..
..to mould answers that have no words..

i heard her heart split into pieces,
cd discover her voice shrivel...
....as she reminisced her tymes wid him...
it bleeded out of d stone...
n she wept empathizing d pain he never experienced..
...he repeated to b 2gether again,
after so much denial 4m her side...
'nt realising' one more cut he makes to her heart wid every 'no'...
--''a tear trickled down my eye''--....
she's not a rock... i wondered... she's not...
she's not fire, not even wood ----but blamed ! misunderstood !...
n they who claim to b their best frenz cdnt find out..
--''my muffler was wet... wid d tears dat were supposed to be hers but spouting out of my eyes..''--.
....not a single drop 4m hers though ...
but her voice cried, squealing for help...
begging him to stop...
..... he kept on stabbing her further...
there's was no1.. n she wants no1 either
---- bt she needs one badly...
n i cant be there.... huh! m not there...
...--''n i soaked my shirt too now''--
they say, she's hard hearted..
...they say she's brutal, she's selfish, she's vicious...
i dnt knw how ryte they r wid dat ...
...all i knw is she's so n will remain to b d same till she 'explains'
n till then ...

'i like her'...

some things unwind as u stop trying them....

While sliding along a thorny slope,
wid choking blindness around.
Some mugged up doors, a ray of hope,
though none unlocked I found..

I knocked out some, some voices came,
but none of them profound,
They peeped in through the broken frame,
n then they turned around..

Skidded, scraping down d height,
Hung up!, struck hard a rock,
Wid no1 around, there's yet no lyte,
Your there without a knock..

Held my hand, wiped off the tear-
helped me as I tread,
Whispered the words, I craved to hear,
M there wid u , (s)he said..

Thanx a lot for saying so,
U know not wat u gave,
-the gentle hug,d care u show,
-4 calming over the rave..

4 invoking in me the meaning again,
by having in me the trust,
4 pulling me from the force insane,
2 help me resist the thrust..

Though nothing from u, ur side arise,
so special as such 2 be done,
But ur presence behind, the urge in those eyes-
was rare like no one..

Watever it be, I need no share,
no tyme, or so extra attention!
Just a feeling dat YOU are there,
That's it n all is done...

18 december 2007, tuesday.

There's no point of running away from it,
...but its time to run 'through' it!

No need...:-)

How many pieces do u want?
Just chop it once I plead,
My heart is not a piece of stone,
Yet, I wont impede.

Strike it once, it splits up wide,
its not so large indeed,
Make it as much worse u can,
I promise it wd never...
...ever find ur need!

13 september 2007.

Div(w)ine Indeed..

Among the thousand's bottles so fine,
each one with the finest lust,
chose the one with the rightest wine
Whilst it was enshrouded high on dust...

Drank it to my heart,
preserved within to the core,
Hypnotized to the extent by its taste,
even the grimes I started to adore.

Cleansed away the grunge,
by the time, it showed off its effect,
got me now the point,-
the reason for its reject.

Streaming in away the drouth,
Poised thy me within,
Though I had to spew it out,
I didnt give up to drink.

Yeah the same, someday it was,
used to be divine,
but now as I... seeped it in!,
The 'wine' is just a wine..



7 September 2007, Friday